Year of the Boar, Seventh Month, Day 15.
Atsuko has organised a group of six maids to take care of me. She thinks I need to get used to seeing people. I feel too tired to argue over it. So long as all of them take care of the bird; I care little when all is said and done. Nanami will be back in two or three days and then she can deal with them. Quite why Atsuko thinks I do not see people, I have no idea. I see the Diplomats almost daily, there are maids in my ante-chamber constantly, there is Nanami and there has been Chiyo... I see people all the time...
I have asked Atsuko to make sure that Chiyo learns to read and I have also told her to find out if any of the other staff are illiterate. She did not look impressed but I will not have people working in my House who cannot read. I simply will not. It is unthinkable and ridiculous. I cannot imagine that Kaede has maids who cannot read her correspondence to her or Kenta... Kenta... my fingers spasm around the handle of my brush at the thought of him... would things have been different if I had not sent him away...? If I had allowed him to help me... perhaps... perhaps... perhaps Shigeru would be dead and I would not be so afraid. Or perhaps Kenta would simply have offered a shoulder upon which to cry and little else... I should have talked to him; I can see that now but then... I could not. Had I never met Broken Rampart, I would not be sitting here thinking about confiding in Kenta. There has still been no word from Broken Rampart. He promised none but I had thought that he might... that he might think enough of me to want me to know how he fared... Crystal has been chirping incessantly for most of the afternoon. No... not chirping, squawking. She has been acting strangely. Flitting about in her cage and refusing to settle. She has enough food and water and she has been let out today so I cannot think what ails her. I will ask Atsuko to do something when she comes in later... for now... I must try again to sleep... I am so very tired and if I can sleep, I will not think about smoking...
I have asked Atsuko to make sure that Chiyo learns to read and I have also told her to find out if any of the other staff are illiterate. She did not look impressed but I will not have people working in my House who cannot read. I simply will not. It is unthinkable and ridiculous. I cannot imagine that Kaede has maids who cannot read her correspondence to her or Kenta... Kenta... my fingers spasm around the handle of my brush at the thought of him... would things have been different if I had not sent him away...? If I had allowed him to help me... perhaps... perhaps... perhaps Shigeru would be dead and I would not be so afraid. Or perhaps Kenta would simply have offered a shoulder upon which to cry and little else... I should have talked to him; I can see that now but then... I could not. Had I never met Broken Rampart, I would not be sitting here thinking about confiding in Kenta. There has still been no word from Broken Rampart. He promised none but I had thought that he might... that he might think enough of me to want me to know how he fared... Crystal has been chirping incessantly for most of the afternoon. No... not chirping, squawking. She has been acting strangely. Flitting about in her cage and refusing to settle. She has enough food and water and she has been let out today so I cannot think what ails her. I will ask Atsuko to do something when she comes in later... for now... I must try again to sleep... I am so very tired and if I can sleep, I will not think about smoking...
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