Year of the Boar, Ninth Month, Day 5.

He has not tried to come near me since I went to his bed and of course, I cannot blame him. I thought perhaps he liked me well enough to want to know what ailed me but it would seem that I was but a dalliance. I had righted myself by the time Atsuko and Nanami returned from the town and I said nothing to them about what I had done; I could not have borne the look of condemnation in their eyes or the recriminations. I know I am my own worst enemy and that I have behaved very stupidly; I do not need either of them to tell me.
Atsuko dressed me this morning and despite my upset, I actually enjoyed a light breakfast of fruit and some of the local wheat cakes. It seems that rice is not as popular in the Seventh Kingdom as it is in the Ninth; the people here prefer bread and potatoes. I could not eat like this forever but it has made a pleasant change.
The innkeeper employs some musicians to play while his guests dine in the evenings and this morning, they were practising as I ate breakfast. Their bright, lilting tunes bore no resemblance at all to the slow, languid music of my Lands and for a few moments, I forgot all of my troubles and simply enjoyed the music and the food. I thought briefly that I could leave my House and live here in the Seventh instead... what if instead of travelling north, I turned around and went south... I could even cross into the Eighth... but of course, I cannot. I have done many things that I regret but I will not leave my House to fend for itself. If I have not already done things beyond redemption, that... would be unforgivable.