Year of the Boar, Seventh Month, Day 25.

I spoke to Atsuko and Nanami earlier; it was no help. Atsuko is of the opinion that I should move to my Summer House immediately. She says the Autumn chill will not have reached the coast yet and that when it does, the walls can be insulated with hangings and we can build fires. She says that having a skeleton staff will do me no harm and that it would be far easier to defend the smaller House. Nanami firmly believes  that my place is here and that moving to the Summer House would be an admission of some sort of guilt and an act of cowardice not befitting a Lady of Dying Crane. She behaved mostly oddly, her manner was almost... furtive. I have no idea quite why she should be so adamant that I remain at the House; I would have imagined that Atsuko would be the one to try and make sure I remain at the House...
I do not know what to do... I have been thinking more about giving Shigeru what he wants... I do not think I can do it; the thought of even being in the same room as him makes my skin crawl and the thought of allowing him to touch me ... I cannot... I cannot... Perhaps there are some scouts who could be sent out to try and discover Shigeru's whereabouts... In the meantime, I must attend the evening meal in the Hall...